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Helsing

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  1. oh no no no no, better be good fellas o.o Good post Cecil, you have made me proud
  2. Yeah i can't say I've prestiged myself, if that's an issue perhaps there needs to be a revamp done to the skill tree, adding more skills, making it so you can choose skills at will and not have them so linear, and then perhaps with more selection and more ways to achieve them, it can become better.
  3. I like the thinking behind this, and in theory it seems like something that could maybe be pretty cool. But, it kind of also just sounds like it might be a re-branded skill tree. People are rewarded for the time and effort they put into the server. If maybe the skill tree was changed to not be so linear, like if people could choose where they wanted their points to go, then i could see it basically being this exact type of thing. I know this is also supposed to be something that people use credits for, but maybe the skill tree could possibly add the ability to buy skill points with credits, perhaps at a constantly increasing cost to make it more fair (10,000 for the first point, 20,000 then 30,000 and so on).
  4. WARNING - This content contains information regarding depression and suicide. Do not read it if you are uncomfortable with that. Hi everyone, I write this post whilst sitting at my computer, drinking, listening to music and lying to the people talking to me by telling them that I am okay. I'm not. I haven't been okay for months now, and have actually been stuck in the slump that is the lowest point I've ever fallen to in my life. Some of you know me, some of you don't. I'm sorry if this upsets some of you, or if, as I've been going through this, I've been distant or even ignored some of you. It hasn't been my intention to sabotage any friendships I've made or make anyone feel any less of a fiend to me than they are. I'm 24 years old, currently live in a share house with another friend. have been going to counselling for about the last 2 months, sold 2 of my cars, my motorbike, collectible swords and armors just to make sure i can keep paying rent because i'm newly unemployed, recently split with my partner of over 5 years and tried to end my own life 4 times within the last 2 months. The spoiler below has more in-depth details of what I've done and gone through over the past while. Only read it if you are comfortable doing so. Some of you might be asking yourselves why i'm writing something like this, hell, i'm asking myself the same question right now. But, in the time it's taken me to write this I've changed from being an absolute mess and wanting to end myself to being okay, and wanting to try and reach out to others who might feel the same sometimes. It's hard to find a reason to get out of bed, it's hard to talk to people, it's hard to even leave the house or hang out with friends and family, it's hard to open up and start conversations about the things we go through and I hate that I can't do it enough. I hate that I can't talk to my friends and family about how I feel because every time i'm asked how i'm going I lie through my teeth and make up some bullsh*t "good" things that have been happening to me just to put their minds at ease and not have them worry about me. Family and friends reach out for a reason, and it's NEVER too much of a problem to talk to them about your issues or just about how you're feeling. True friends and family are never going to turn you away, or lose interest in what you are saying if you actually tell them the truth. You're never a "bother" for them, it's never "nothing" to have suicidal thoughts or depression constantly. You're no less of a "man/woman" for asking for help. I disgustingly forgot all of these things, which I preached them to myself 7 years ago after I lost a friend to suicide. He would always tell us he was okay and we would believe him, and would always seem it, on the outside. He was at my house one night, hanging out with myself and a few more friends, and then when he and another friend walked back to their houses, it was the last time anyone ever saw him alive. He was found 4 days later in a sewer drain, dead. He had gone to an outdoor camping store and bought himself a chair and some canisters of a gas, gassed himself in the chair next to the storm drain and presumably fallen into it. This post is far from perfect, and there is still so much more I just can't put into words or form into a sentence, but, I just want everyone reading this to know that there is still light at the end of that tunnel, I know it's near impossible to tell sometimes, believe me, but it is there. There are ALWAYS people available to talk to, I myself am definitely included no matter if we've spoken before or not, and getting help is not shameful or weak, it's actually the most courageous thing you can do. Please consider utilizing these services if you are going through a tough time and are having trouble getting help: 13 11 14 - Lifeline Australia - 24/7 https://www.lifeline.org.au 1300 22 4636 - beyondblue - 24/7 www.beyondblue.org.au 1300 78 99 78 - Mensline Australia - 24/7 www.mensline.org.au 1800 55 1800 - Kids Help Line - 24/7 www.kidshelp.com.au 1300 659 467 - Suicide Callback Service - 24/7 https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/
  5. Helsing

    Erryday chest day

    Hammer you gotta work other parts of your body my dude @Hammer
  6. I actually came here late one night after watching swrp trolling vids. There were some REALLY cringey people in the vid i watched and so i joined to see if that's what it was really like. I actually liked it once i started.
  7. Cya bro, have fun out there in the big wide world. Don't forget me when you're famous :')
  8. He's still yet to impress me @Cecil
  9. Honestly it could have simply been wrong place at the wrong time. But I specifically remember you being there when situations were arising. I'll give you the benefit of the doubt with my support as a few of the people that I remembered being staff back then have said they don't think you were doing stuff similar to Brass and Emerald.
  10. +1 Didn't you get into strife from us along with Emerald and Brass for minging and being straight up nuisances a crap tonne a few months back? I think i remember a lot of discussions about you 3 being pests in Naboo an awful lot. Has been a nice and friendly guy from what i've seen over the past year and could bring positive changes to the staff team As long as the staff team isn't still over-saturated as it was months back I would see no reason to not accept Auzii and give him the chance he deserves. Good Luck
  11. Sure it's fun, but it's so frustratingly slow it's insane.
  12. Was that the legit music video? I cringed so f**king hard when they started dancing
  13. Damn why do they drive like poop then :/
  14. Deadass, they just "scubaru'd" the steering wheel that's all
  15. Yuck BRZ's are just a ripoff of the 86's. There's a reason they race 86's on the track and not BRZ's. They look nice but I don't like copycats.
  16. Sorry lads, you know I just had to do it to 'em, It's time for me to take my leave. It was a good 380 odd days straight within Sith and 400ish within the community since I started gmod back in april last year. Achieving Senior EM, full Mod and Darth Vader. But, there came a point where I looked at the time and effort I was putting into it all and realised that at this point in my life I should be putting that time and effort into things that will actually benefit me and my career and not into worrying about a video game as if it was a job. I loved spending time with everyone and having fun, but it's time to move on, there is only so far I think you can take yourself before it starts to consume you on and off the server and then it stops being about having fun and more about flexing and trying to have a higher social standing than the others. Most people are good within the community, but there are those that think because they have the most virtual points, highest rank or the longest playtime that they are genuinely better than others and that toxic behaviour is a major deterrent. I'm not going to be tagging anybody because the boys (and girls) will know they were one of the boys, and I have no intention of making anyone feel less special when I forget to tag them. Hit me up on discord or anywhere else you have me to play some games anytime idiots x
  17. Helsing

    Rip Born

    Good bye my lover, good bye my friend. Cya horny borny, good luck with your studies and getting into the job you wanted mate.
  18. Good bye friend. Good luck in your future endeavors. Was good having those late night talks about your scuffed PACs all those months ago.
  19. Yeah applying for Graphic Designer doesn't really have anything to do with holding staff positions on other servers. It's only part of the terms of becoming IG "staff" to not be holding staff in another community. Considering it's a non staff role as would be "developer", "support team" or other positions in "media team". I don't think it would be an issue unless he started sharing things he made for us with others. Back to the app; I'll be leaving positive support because I believe you show potential and could prove to be a valuable asset to the design team. Good Luck
  20. I'm sure you'll keep popping up in my steam messages you minge @Boris. Sorry to hear you're leaving, it was fun. We'll play some other games some time. Have fun in whatever you end up doing mate.
  21. @Cecil @Basil First one to buy boots in league wins
  22. nice work mate Honestly, this is what I'd go into battle with:
  23. At this point, it looks much worse than it is. It's as simple as, a trooper was throwing glitter around, imperial personnel were unhappy with it, as well as players OOC. Once it gets to the point of people complaining about it staff HAVE to step in, and that's what has happened.
  24. I think I understand what you're trying to get across. The only thing is, people seem to forget that this is Star Wars Roleplay. Not just RP like the sims or something. It needs to make sense in the star wars universe.
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